Posts Tagged ‘Brighid’
Ugh. Sometime in December, my discipline and focus crumbled. I really fell off the trance train…
I’ve been working to reestablish my discipline over the last couple weeks. I started to reread Paxson’s “Trance-Portations” and am going through the exercises. I’m not rushing it. I really want to spend time on the foundational skills. I’ve been more mindful about my grounding, shielding, and visualization. I continue to do my Druid Egg shielding on mornings, but sometimes it’s difficult to visualize when I’m exhausted. (I haven’t been sleeping well lately… )
I started to participate in Sassafras Grove’s Brighid-Along to help me prepare for Imbolc. This has given me additional inspiration for my inner work. I did a very quick meditation on day one. Finding quiet time for meditation and trance has been challenging. My daughter’s sleep schedule has been really off lately, so by the time she falls asleep, I’m usually exhausted. I’ve decided that I won’t allow myself to wallow in the challenges and what I don’t feel able to accomplish. Rather, I’m going to adapt. If I can only meditate for a short time, I’m going to make that meaningful and really focus!
Last night, I meditated on Brighid during, and ended up walking into my inner grove where one of my spirit guide was waiting. (I’m starting to look for other words to describe them…I’ve seen fetch used by several people focused on European traditions, but I need to do more research.) We talked a little, reconnecting. I had felt him reaching out to me a lot over the week, so I knew he was waiting.
My plan is to start posting on my blog again to keep myself accountable.
The following is an account of my continued work with trance as part of ADF’s Trance 1 course, advanced studies towards Initiate status. I’ve decided to share my personal experiences on my blog as a way of personal accountability. If some of my reflections happen to help others on similar journeys, I hope they share!
Last week, I posted about my work following The Way of the Shaman by Harner. My first Underworld exercise was successful. Listening to a basic, recorded drum beat really helped. It was interesting to read that most shamans have an assistant drum for them. This made me feel better about my previous failures drumming to trance. I’ve had mild success in the past, but it’s hard work and very rare. Working up the stamina to drum, keeping the same beat, and allowing myself to journey… it didn’t work well most of the time. In fact, my biggest success was at a group drumming session. My second attempt at trance last week did not go so well, and I suspected part of the reason was that I did it outside of a ritual setting. It lacked the lead up, the offerings made to helpful deities and spirit allies, and the necessary mental keys (aside from the drumming).
I’ve done two more trance exercises since. The first followed the same theme of journey to the Underworld via an entrance from my inner grove. I once more rode my spirit guide. Prior to this journey, I made offerings to Brighid and did my nightly devotional to her. I remembered seeing a being during my absolute first attempt who I instinctively felt might be her. We went through the illuminated passage and found our way to her.
The being revealed herself to be Brighid and said she heard me calling. I talked to the Goddess about my focus and where I should head. She emphasized service to others and truly embracing hospitality and generosity; she stated that those are very important to her. She specifically mentioned helping the less fortunate. This is something I will have to think more on as there are many ways to go about this, and I need to figure out what I can do that doesn’t require a lot of money and works with my schedule. Maybe volunteer at a soup kitchen a bit over the summer? It would be a good start and is certainly something I can do.
For my second trance journey, I focused on my inner grove and my spirit guide for a magical working. He gave me a special sign to inscribe on objects to promote increase or growth, and taught me a sort of dance to do. I utilized the symbol and dance to inscribe and charge some water that I then left out to soak up the new moon energy. I plan to utilize it in creating some incense.
So there you have it – I’ve kept up the Trance 1 momentum! I even worked in some magical working, which I can use towards Magic 2! I wonder what this week will bring?
We had an unseasonably spring-like Imbolc, but An Cailleach isn’t done with us yet! Northern NY will experience some seriously frigid temperatures tonight into tomorrow, and we’re experiencing lake effect snow today. Visibility has been pretty poor around my home. Many local businesses and offices closed or never opened today, and I was fortunate enough to stay home. Perhaps that colors my judgement today, but I try to stay positive about the winter weather.
Since I’m an animist and a polytheist, I find it really difficult to moan too much about what Nature does. It just feels seriously disrespectful. Sure, I grumble a bit when I have to brush and scrape the car, then drive in potentially hazardous conditions… but if I want to maintain a healthy relationship with Nature and the spirit realm, I need to find the silver lining and give gratitude for blessings known and unknown. I need to accept Nature’s rhythms to truly learn and grow in my Druidism.
An Cailleach surely blesses us with snow. Northern climates need this as it will help with the later harvest. It helps to control populations of parasites and disease carrying critters. Many seeds require cold to germinate later. Furthermore, the snow and cold teachers us humility and patience. In our modern world, so full of conveniences, few things shake humanity out of the illusion of control like difficult weather! And really, I feel quite blessed to live in a place that experiences an occasional ice storm or blizzard compared to hurricanes or tsunamis. Man oh man, it must be hard to find the blessings in that! (I’d be curious if readers in other climates and locations have found blessings and would be willing to share.)
A snowy day is a great day to get in touch with your inner child, too. Having a little one forces me to reconnect with the whimsy of winter! Taking the time to catch snowflakes on our tongues, make snow fairies, and build snowmen is still so much fun! (Although rolling balls for snowmen really makes me feel my age. Choose the pain you’d like to experience later – knees or back!)
After making offerings to the Nature Spirits and playing in the snow, it’s so nice to come inside, peel off those wet gloves, and enjoy some hot cocoa. My husband makes a delicious batch from scratch! As I hold the mug, I feel Brighid’s warmth flowing into me. I feel gratitude for the lessons and blessings that come with enjoying An Cailleach’s wintry weather and Brighid’s warm, sheltering hearth.
I’m so excited to share that I won a free autographed copy of Brigid: History, Mystery, and Magick of the Celtic Goddess by Courtney Weber. A friend on Twitter brought the author and contest to my attention after I posted about my recent Imbolc reflections and activities. I decided to enter because why wouldn’t a flame keeper want to get her hands on a book about Brighid?!
Plus, Inciting a Riot described it as such: “Think Eat, Pray, Love meets Mists of Avalon.” Um…yes please?
I found it waiting for me yesterday and I hope to start reading it tonight. What a delightful Imbolc blessing! I’ll be sure to let you know what I think about it when I finish. If you’re too curious to wait, you can order a copy from Courtney’s website!
Many of us associate Imbolc with milk in part because, as tradition has it, the holiday falls when the sheep in Ireland are lactating. As a result, a favorite family activity in many Pagan households is making butter, and many of us offer cow, sheep, or goat milk to Brighid.
Since becoming a mother, I’ve found myself reflecting on the milk my body produces. Brighid has connections to motherhood and midwifery, too, and as someone who already looked to Brighid with gratitude for inspiration and warmth, I naturally embraced this other side of her. Every year since giving birth to Bee, Imbolc is a special time for me to reflect on my ability to produce nourishment for my little one*.
Meditating on the magic of lactation took a new direction this Imbolc as I readied my Hygeia breast pump for a friend, protogrove mate, and new mama to use! I was so happy to share this pump. I bought it in part because it’s one of the few in the market that is meant to be shared; one of the few that is FDA approved to be shared (provided each person using buy replacement flanges and such). I realized that this same woman watched me openly breastfeed my daughter at every protogrove event. Part of my ability to do that was the encouragement my previous grove gave me, and their openness in letting me nurse without covering up. It also came from watching a coven-mate nurse her daughter back from my days in an eclectic circle. I brought that behavior to my own protogrove, and everyone was very supportive, especially members who had had children before our founding. We worked to normalize the behavior in our group and emphasize that it was natural and beautiful. The menfolk showed their support, too, and never showed any discomfort. In fact, I know they would all stand up for me if someone tried to tell me I should cover up.
At our last Imbolc rite, I witnessed my friend breastfeed her little one. My daughter saw it, as did the other children. They will grow up knowing it’s normal. In fact, as you can read in the article I linked below, part of why so many new mothers struggle with breastfeeding is that they’ve never seen it before! Think about it. As children, we learn so much through imitation. Naturally, people are reluctant to try things they’ve never seen, and many are discouraged when first attempts don’t succeed. This is why creating a positive, nurturing environment for families is so important, and that includes mothers, fathers, doulas, lactation consultants, and midwives.
Breastfeeding has become part of my grove’s culture, and seeing my friend nurse so openly as well made it feel very communal. I truly feel that each time mothers nurse in front of others, especially women and girls, or each time we stand up for the rights of a mother to nurse, we take on the role of the midwife in some way, birthing a new generation of nurturing people.
For more info on breastfeeding: http://www.mothering.com/articles/natural-breastfeeding/
*Yes, I’m still breastfeeding! Going for the natural weaning approach because it works for my family.
It’s a work night, so we can’t stay up to enjoy the whole lunar eclipse. However, we simply had to take advantage of the excellent viewing conditions to catch the beginning. What a great excuse for family time around a bonfire? Before building the fire, I gave an offering of milk to Brighid, and prayed for a warm, safe fire this night. We stayed out until the moon was half obscured by Earth’s shadow. It’s always so humbling to look up and out. Such events bring us closer, I think.