We experienced a very beautiful full moon recently. Several people commented that they felt an intense amount of energy related to it. Normally I feel very energetic around full moons, but this month found me exhausted, drained, and even a little ill feeling. To be sure, November has been a stressful month for many of us.
My trance practice has been very minimal the last few weeks. I’m not proud of that, but I’ve been feeling out of it. Work has me exhausted. The news has me exhausted. My daughter has been ill which has me exhausted. Today, at a grove business meeting, I opened by pouring a few random objects out for people to view. I asked everyone to choose an object that represents where they are in their study programs, Druidism, or even just their involvement with the group. I chose the wine cork because I felt like I was just staying buoyant. I wasn’t really progressing anywhere, but I was maintaining my spiritual practice to the best of my ability.
I suppose I should look on the bright side and celebrate that I haven’t just completely stopped maintaining my relationships with spirit allies, but I am disgruntled that I haven’t done more to finish the study programs I’m working on. I’m annoyed with myself for not doing more towards my trance studies in particular.
I’ve continued to visualize my Druid egg around me in the mornings as a way to shield. Some days I can see and feel it really clearly; others I’m barely awake and feel like I’m going through the motions. I’ve continued to try and do my yoga on the weekends. Last week I had a much-needed massage. I feel like that cleared away some of the cobwebs. Today felt particularly good as I mindfully went into my yoga, focusing on each of the Three Realms as I moved from the ground, through tree, and reached to the sky. Perhaps, as the moon wanes, the ennui will decrease and I can meditate on what intentions to set for the new moon.
Author M. A. Phillips 