Today was a stressful day. It was, as I told my husband, the Monday of Mondays. Getting to work was not difficult, but once I was there it was one thing after another. There was a lot of absenteeism today. Many people are out with whooping cough which is kind of uncomfortable. I took my lunch break to run some errands. I sent my grad school application off which was good. The rest is in the hands of the administrators and the Gods. I then took some time to make what I thought would be a quick business call. It turned into a very long and stressful exchange, but supposedly everything was rectified. A second time. Gods willing, everything is fine and I will get my bloody certificate of authority so I can legally sell at the upcoming craft show! Everyone was very kind, patient, and helpful so I can’t fault them too much…
I’ve come to accept that it’s going to take me awhile to finish my Initiate Study Program. Hell, it took me at least a year to delve into my DP, and three years after that to finish. I took my time. Who can blame me? I was working on my first degree while working part time and maintaining various hobbies. Working full time while attending grad school? I know I’m going to have my hands full.
I am finding myself less resentful and guilty for my limited Druidic studying. I do what I can. I do my short daily devotionals, I pray, I make offerings to Brighid when I sew, and I do my weekly ritual complete with ogham reading. I practice bits of kitchen magic here and there. I try to make time for meditations and walks in the woods. I listen to Pagan music and podcasts. I alternate fiction with Pagan studies when I read before bed. I get in touch with my inner self and the spirits through my art. That is how I am living and experiencing Paganism now. Do I feel like I could do more? Sure. But I’m not beating myself up over it now.
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