I had a wonderful experience in the forest earlier, and I will blog about that later – but for now I want to talk about something else.
For me, ADF satisfies three very important things – my desire to worship using reconstructionist models, my desire to be creative, and community. I love these aspects of ADF and it’s why I feel at home there.
But there are times where I find myself wanting more… And I guess when I say more, I mean more community in the here and now. I wish the grove was closer and I wish we met more often than on high days. I know this would be terribly demanding in reality, but there are times when I feel like I could really benefit from a more hands-on teacher. I read about traditional witches with their apprentices or very close-knit CR groups that practice trance, divination, and other folk magic together. I try to do these things on my own but I so often feel like I’m afloat in a great big sea. I have had significant trance experiences, including moments where Gods or a spirit guide help me out, but they are rare. Often it is only myself. In some ways, I suppose this is empowering. I can forge my own paths without bending to the will of an elder, but that’s very easy for a young whippersnapper like myself to rationalize. I know I could gain much from an elder, but few seem spiritually/emotionally/physically available, especially when it comes to CR or CR oriented Druidism.
Anyway, these were just thoughts rolling around my head this afternoon.
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