Now that Baby Bee is here, I’m struggling to maintain my previous Druidic practices. The various study programs I’ve been working on in ADF? If I was slow before, I’m going to be at a snail’s pace now! My nightly devotionals have ceased for the time being due to exhaustion. I’m on the baby’s schedule right now and not my own. It’s difficult to attempt trance or long meditation since she could need feeding, changing, or comforting. And this blog entry has been a draft for days.
I don’t feel any guilt about it. Do I miss my usual workings? Of course, but The Kindreds get it. Brighid is very concerned with mothers and children so I feel nothing but support from her. My ancestors include mothers who understand. Rearing children is natural, so the Nature Spirits don’t object to my decreased visits.
But I try my best and do what I can, when I can. Just as I haven’t cut ties with my family and friends to care for the baby, the Kindreds are deserving of love and gratitude – even if it’s in smaller, less-frequent doses.
The easiest thing for me to do has been pray. I always make a point to give prayers of gratitude before meals, for example. Now I’ve noticed myself getting back into making offerings here and there. A cup of spicy tea for Brighid here, a beautiful and fresh strawberry for the Nature Spirits there.
These are small gestures but it’s important to me that I express my gratitude to the Kindreds in some way.
In the meantime, I’m planning a little ritual to introduce Baby Bee to the Kindreds within my hearth and home. I’m also discussing a more formal saining ceremony with Rev. Skip Ellison of Muin Mound Grove.
These little things are important. They are my stepping stones back to regular Druidic practice.